Friday, August 28, 2009
shinee
shinee and bright.

scar:
18
[ Music: Replay - SHINee ]

4th day of being 18.
nothing much has changed
18th bday is just something..
that says that ure partially free.
and soon.
ull be thrown into society
the real, society
the dog eat dog world
the hectic lifestyle.

it is there ull see more of the other side of human beings
the cold
the irrational
the uncouth

18.
its just another signpost
that tells you
hey
ure old.
grow up!
quit being cosy at home.
-------------------------------------------------------------

maybe.
to hold on to things
that are so quite impossible.
is tough.
let it go?
Sunday, August 23, 2009
canto show
[ Music: Lies - Big Bang ]

王老虎抢亲
lol.
quite a lame canto drama.



oh i got things to say.
but then
i dont feel like saying it here.
sad.


smoo u.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
exams.
[ Music: Genie - SNSD ]

oh HAIZ.
yesyes.
mugging.
one day if only the world would slow down..
the pace is too fast.
its.. too fast.

would the world end before we know it?
there are so many things that humans dont know
yet we seek them
not knowing the dangers.
scientist predict findings through assumptions.
and when they cant find it. they think of another way.
it FAILED. so as to say.

they predict that. no
we wont die.
strangelets or blackholes wont kill us
it wont happen that way.
but who knows.
one way or another
another kind of catastrophe happens?

studies.
study so hard
just to survive.
to SURVIVE. not even saying it will make u succeed in life.
professors also can end up driving taxis.
and yet we study so hard.
climbing up the education ladder
just to survive.. what a joke.

despite saying all these.
we STILL have to study.
life is sad.
we spend almost 20 years studying.
and work for the rest of the 40 years.
or even longer.
till then we retire and our children..
follow our footsteps
up the ladder..

oh just.
smoo u.
smoo everything.
smoo the world.

life smoo.

(smoo is just a word with no meaning coined by zh.)
(its DEFINITELY not the vulgar word.just a blank word)
Monday, August 17, 2009
my character
[ Music : Scar - SHINee ]

okay.
this post.
goes to everyone who knows me.
some face this problem that i have
some dont.

if people whom i know finish reading this.
i hope u all can understand.




how do i start off..
i mean.
if i dont talk to you.
i politely reject what you offer me eg(food)
or somehow i dont seem to care whatever you say or do.
it all doesnt mean i hate you.
i dont like you
or such.

its just
me.
my personality
my character.
maybe its affected by birthdates too?
i believe in zodiac. its characteristic and signs.
im under virgo.
and to me..
many characteristic of it described are really what i have.
both bad and good.
one day. just take some time. read my zodiac.
(i.e. http://www.psychicguild.com/horoscopes_zodiac.php?sign=Virgo)
i am really a lot like what they describe.

but you argue you have a friend who has the same zodiac sign as me, but then he or she is the complete opposite.
i beseech you to reconsider.
all these characteristics are based on general observations and trends.
people who are born virgo display such actions, feel that way. and are that way.
if your friend is the complete opposite of what was described.
i congratulate your friend. for your friend is different and special.

ive tried to step out of what the trend is.
ive tried to be more engaging.
but its just the barrier that i cannot tear down.
i cannot define myself.
the creator of life had done so.

believers of god says,
each one of us is special and unique.
no one is the same.
i am just me.
i try to change but,
the weaker me cant do it.
i can only suffer the consequences of my own traits.

afterall.
i hope to seek understanding from people, who view me
and not be disliked or feel repulsive of my actions.
for what you see,
isint what i really am.

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and no really
to geraldine, jiaying and idris.
i dont hate you all.
if i really hate you.
u know what happens.
=)
Sunday, August 16, 2009
shinee new song.
new song from shinee!
nice nice
=D



enjoy!~
Friday, August 14, 2009
fever
[ Music: Rachmaninoff Prelude Op 23 No 5 ]

fever.
weakness.
it somehow intensifies our senses.
we are more prone to experiencing pain.
bump into something and ull probably cry like hell.
i am weakened.
its hot.
why did i get a fever?
the sun too hot?
someone cursed me?
who knows.

blogging while im having a fever.
my brain cant work properly.
i still have econs to do..

sadness is like naix.
cling on you, and feeds on ur life.
the more you are alone, the more you're susceptible to sadness.
somehow its like that.
when people are together. they gang against sadness.
sadness wont come to you.
but then once you're alone..
sadness solo you.
and you cant fight back.
you are weak.
you need help from other people.
to kill off this sadness.

life is so like dota.
people support you while you face a battle ahead.
people stand together and support each other in times of trouble.
while A lvs are just around 2 months ahead.
who will be there to support us?
our parents, our friends, our family.
you may not see real support in action, but at least believe that,
they will always support you, when you need it.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
hot
[ Music: Colourful Tokyo Sounds no. 9 ]

too hot. till i shiver.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
thats all.
[ Music: Piano concerto no. 2 - Rach ]

always walking past.
yet nothing.
its hard to start.
and harder to end.




OH JUST.
whatever.
Monday, August 3, 2009
a code.
[ Music: Granado Espada - KimJS ]

i will hereby post a coded message here.
and whoever can solve it.
will know what im trying to say
and the smart one who guessed it correctly.
i promise to give you monetary rewards!
im kinda serious about this.
although yea. this only applies to people i knowwwwww.

:)

so.. lets start.

HSYNAGLEQPZSEHGNLDDXDPQNONGRLPENUNSWLMHVLDDXESHSEDXBNGPHPEMDVZNUONG
LDZPENHBNXYSHBLGNHBNRSUHMGLKXUPLSFNSFDNPINNINGRNHNINGXZLXHLDQHLDQHL
DQPHUUSAGNLQPEOPGGPHLHPEOPASEDXSENZLXHBNXMSVDZCVUHQNNFTVPNHLEZMLDRZ
SWEPEMDLUUPHWSVDZYNRVMBYNHHNG

well. thats all.
if you can decipher it. tell me. :) but i doubt anyone will/can XD
prove me wrong!

oh the codes are just broken up because its too long. its not because its the end of a sentence or anything.
there are NO space, punctuation involved. all plain text clumped together LIKETHIS.
Sunday, August 2, 2009
friends.
[ Music: Schubert Piano Sonata D845 ]

friends.
hmm
this post would probably be quite unique.
:)
because.. im gonna talk about my friends!
and all these people are people whom i talk to(frequently)

first up..
my secondary friends!

first we have kai!
kai have been my friend since sec 1.
till now.
yup. so.. the reason why we can "connect".. i dont really know.
XD
well. you dont really need to have a good reason to be best friends right?
i guess he was.. like. half studious. half playful. so maybe.. the mixed character.
not too mugger nor too gamer.

next we have steven!
well. let see. steven also another of my best friend. in my sec sch class.. he was like part of a clique that i was in. lol the mugger-cum-racist(sorry!) clique. his craziness and jokes were like. dam lame. so in the clique there would always be lame stuff.
:) yup nice to have a friend like him.

we also have the omnipresent mr TEELENG.
hahaha.
he was in the clique too. and was almost always the subject of our random talk. about how his money can buy him all the food in the world.. and how teeleng IS the world. and that we are all living inside him etc etc. just to make him feel.. BIG.
those times cracking jokes were epic.

hmm we also have callum.
callum is also another subject of our jokes!
he and his PSA. not the port of sg authority. well it stands for **** Star Academy.
XD
cant remember how we came up with that thing for him..
callum was mr helpful too. he belongs to 2 cliques. ours and the other crazier clique.
but dont worry! i never exploited him(the helpful part i mean)
=)

and of course! we have arianto.
our class mini MAMASHOP.
the english god.
kind of a joker of the class too.
hes the mamashop because in class, we have this locker to put our stuff. then he would bring potato chips and put it in the locker. and sells it for 50cents a packet!
LOL
thats the most epic.
i think only he does that. nice going.
so hungry people of our class always go to him. and he always restock everyday.(almost i guess)
so ya. our domestic ESE. Extremely small enterprise. =x

oh well enough of sec friends.
anyway they are all guys.. since i was in cat high(all boys sch duh) -.-

okok.
next.. JC!

hmm
JC life(an oxymoron. JC where got life..) is kinda chaotic.
first three months in NJ
then afterwards in SA
well.. in NJ. dont really have deeply forged bonds.
so ya. nothing much to say about them.
(it was only for 3 months people.. how deeply bonded can we go?)

hmm. SA..
had some really nice friends too!
hmm first the class.
well we have bowen..
lol. the all friendly guy. who try to maintain good relationships with his peers and not desrupt the "delicate fabric of friendship" lest trouble arises.
haha. hmm lets see. bowen share lots of same sentiments about class stuff. and like who hates who. things going round in class. etc
bowen is a friend whom ill talk about class matters to. like problems and such. cause i think he understands. also a gossip maniac. lol.
lots of gossips can happen with him, peb, isaac, sinlin and me when we talk XD.
interesting stuff hah.

and also.. isaac.
isaac is so so SO easy going and lazy(at times)
cant really describe him. i dont know how.
hes well. responsible. and has a nice attitude too. dont really see any bad attitudes of him except for the laziness at times. and.. nonchalent attitude about some stuff.
but yah. not BAD.
:)

in CCA...(oh i just seldom talk to other people in my class. cant comment much)
we have zhanhong!
and his miss O(his latest gossip)
a bloody kpop FANATIC. i mean. extreme.
lol. not the normal fan kind.
but yea. hes kind of a.. soloist oO? very quiet? talk to his CO friend. quits his clique. and what. has secret(not secret anymore since me and aloy knows) crushes but LAZY TO CONFESS OR CHASE???
after aloy and me talked so much about how to go about chasing and wooing the miss O. he just say "aiya. LAZY"
waste our time and typing capabilities..(our typing speed/skill decays at 0.1 words per decade -- just joking)
but ya. he is a nice guy.

ok. we also have ALOY.
lol. lame and.. joker.
shares lots of his stories and is quite playful? oO
joke joke joke den.. ok.
just take it that hes a part time lamist.
aloy is slack.. dam lazy to study. only when exams are near then he chiong(or maybe not..)
i dont know.. why and how aloy became a good friend.
XD

chenlin..
the mr PC guy!
all my pc problems go to him.(got pc prob book consultation with him!)
he also likes classical music.
and sometimes he introduces me to nice classical music.
woots.
well. chenlin is a nice guy when u dont anger him.
if not. u prepare to die under his cannon fires.
he mean it.(pun? or not)

so far.. all are guys.
now for the girls.
in my cca.

of course. we have THE yenna.
the miss(mrs chan soon?lol) is a laugh alotgirl.
u ask me whats bimbo. i really dont know.
but people call her a bimbo.. *shrugs*
hahaha. well. but i do share lots of band problems to her. in the past.
gossiping about band stuff.
between people
like who and who wad happen.
i hate you and you hate me kind of stuff. XD
happy times sad times.
noob times too o.o(yea i always complain how noober i am coompared to her when she say shes bad at the flute)
most of the time i joke with her. so yea. shes a nice friend in band!(outside band too of course :D)

then we have jasmine..
jasmine. i dont know how to describe her.
sometimes shes normal.
then the next day. she would have a really dark face(darker than usual =x)
i guess its school work?
but she is like.. bubbly. although the bubble can pop anytime and wads worse. the bubble is explosive and explodes in ur face XD
so ya. she and yenna gossip alot too. i think shes quite a strong girl?(emotionally) dont know. some adverse times she would just put on a strong front. but ya. there is a tint of stubborness in her at times.. we would fight to carry stands. &!%@#&^%#

online gaming friends.. i have a few too XD
like kitty. carrot. didi. and so on.

well. i guess... thats all that i could remember?
im not saying that other people are not friends..
but ya. these are the few that i can talk to the best.
=D

these friends are i guess.. the best?
having them can help me tide over tough times.. in school life.
when its too boring
too stressful
they would cheer us up.
encourage us.
thats what friends are for right?

well..
if people think i am always soloist.
lone ranger.
or whatever they say.
its just me.
i just dont like to talk much.
because im not accustomed to talking to you/you/you/and other yous.
i dont know if im weird? or what. but hahaha.
u need to have a key.
a key to open me up.
so that ill get used to you. understand you. and establish a "connection" to you!

it could be a bad character trait of mine.
i have to trust people before ill talk to them.
im not like anyone of those who can just go up to people and say HEY. Hi how are u doing.
i need time.
u feel that i neglect people? oh no i dont. just that i dont know how to approach you and start connecting.
i need to observe. to understand. then i can slowly open up and talk.

the conclusion?
if you dont start first.
i cannot change my frequency to meet yours. :D
and ill just be a wild frequency. there.
silent.
and waiting. :)