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okay.
this post.
goes to everyone who knows me.
some face this problem that i have
some dont.

if people whom i know finish reading this.
i hope u all can understand.




how do i start off..
i mean.
if i dont talk to you.
i politely reject what you offer me eg(food)
or somehow i dont seem to care whatever you say or do.
it all doesnt mean i hate you.
i dont like you
or such.

its just
me.
my personality
my character.
maybe its affected by birthdates too?
i believe in zodiac. its characteristic and signs.
im under virgo.
and to me..
many characteristic of it described are really what i have.
both bad and good.
one day. just take some time. read my zodiac.
(i.e. http://www.psychicguild.com/horoscopes_zodiac.php?sign=Virgo)
i am really a lot like what they describe.

but you argue you have a friend who has the same zodiac sign as me, but then he or she is the complete opposite.
i beseech you to reconsider.
all these characteristics are based on general observations and trends.
people who are born virgo display such actions, feel that way. and are that way.
if your friend is the complete opposite of what was described.
i congratulate your friend. for your friend is different and special.

ive tried to step out of what the trend is.
ive tried to be more engaging.
but its just the barrier that i cannot tear down.
i cannot define myself.
the creator of life had done so.

believers of god says,
each one of us is special and unique.
no one is the same.
i am just me.
i try to change but,
the weaker me cant do it.
i can only suffer the consequences of my own traits.

afterall.
i hope to seek understanding from people, who view me
and not be disliked or feel repulsive of my actions.
for what you see,
isint what i really am.

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and no really
to geraldine, jiaying and idris.
i dont hate you all.
if i really hate you.
u know what happens.
=)